I am Geek--hear me type!

I should be rewriting the story that I'm planning on sending to WOTF for Q108, but I'm being a Murphy's procrastinator. I'll let my subconscious work on an attack plan for the revisions. Meanwhile...

I am a geek.

According to the Wiktionary, a geek is:

*A person intensely interested in a particular field or hobby, generally at the expense of broader social interaction.

According to Wikipedia:

*somebody whose reasoning and decision making is always first and foremost based on his/her passions rather than things like financial reward or social acceptance.

*A person who has chosen concentration rather than conformity; one who pursues skill...and imagination, not mainstream social acceptance.

*A person with a devotion to something in a way that places him or her outside the mainstream.

*A person who rejects society, yet is involved in it — unlike and in contrast to a hermit.

*the particular interests of nerds are of practical nature...while those of geeks are often considered trivial but entertaining.

*a bright young man turned inward, poorly socialized, who felt so little kinship with his own planet that he routinely traveled to the ones invented by his favorite authors

I'm not too sure about the bright part. According to Tickle.com my IQ was 130, and, of course, that's as far an online tests can be trusted. A timed online test I took a decade earlier had me at 120. I tend to do well in what captures my fancy, while zoning in areas that don't. It wouldn't surprise me to learn I've been struggling with attention deficit all my life--in fact, I'm pretty sure of it. And for those of you that don't have that problem, thus less than sympathetic, it's not something that can just be willed away.

I've had pseudo-intellectual interests in technology and layman science. Ever since my father came home with the C64, I was hooked on programming. First with Basic 2.0, then with 6510 Assembler--later on it was C & C++. But, professionally, I ended up on the mainframe, and when I came home, the last thing I wanted to do was more programming.

Yeah, I've made a few side projects. Of course, I've done Tic Tac Toe--haven't we all? The code was surprisingly short and simple.

A couple years back I got 75% through a homemade version of Pacman, enough to get Pacman, Blinkey, Pinkey, Inkey and Clyde moving through the maze, with power pellets and dots. Yes, when Pacman ate the blinking power pellet, the ghost turned blue. Pacman could eat them, leaving their eyes wandering back to the ghost box and regenerate. Why not add sound, scoring, and a more rigorous routines for the ghosts? Because, I realized I could, and when I realized that, I'd finished what I set out to accomplish. To continue on would have little point.

In '03, I did a workable version of chess. You could play against another human, or the computer, or computer against computer. Of course, the computer made lousy moves. I tried refining and refining the reiterative routines, but there was only so much VB could crunch. In chess, things get exponential very fast. I rewrote the core engine in straight C to see if it would run faster, but I got sidetracked with other things. A couple years back, I did massage the VB code into Excel and refashioned it into a workable Excel Chess. But since then, I haven't touched it.

So most of my homemade programs have tended to be interesting trinkets, experiments as it were, and when I began writing I had little time for these diversions anymore. And, of course, technology marches on, faster and faster. You blink and you fall behind. I understand C++ has moved on to C# and VB has moved onto VB.NET. But I still miss the days of DOS 3.0, when I knew exactly what my PC was doing. Namely, only what I told it to. With Vista, I feel like a helpless baby. I hear you churning, hard drive--what are you doing?

Thus, I trend toward the trivial but entertaining(geekdom), rather than to the technical but practical(nerdom). My interests are definitly outside the mainstream. I reject many aspects of society and question the cultural norms--who says that until 11AM you eat one foodset, but after you eat another? If it's 6AM--give me my pizza! Oh--just not from a chain restaurant.

No, I am not being different for it's own sake, or because I think it makes me look cool. I'm not concerned about your acceptance. I'm not afraid that you'll stop interacting with me--it'll give me more time for my own pursuits.